Hey guys!! If you saw the title of this article on my Instagram story, you're probably pretty confused, but don't worry, I'll explain later. Social media is such a huge part of our lives. For the most part, I believe it has a huge capability to bring about a lot of good and positive change. Recently social media hasn't been having that same affect on me, and I wanted to talk about why I haven't been loving it so much lately and how I've been trying to fix it.
First of all, we spend a ridiculous amount of time on social media. I mean, how could we not? It's so entertaining and such a simple way to connect with others. But you know what else is entertaining? THE REAL WORLD! You know another simple way to connect with others? By having conversations, face to face. Social media is strange, because even though it seems like we're putting ourselves out into the world, we're really hiding from the world from behind our phone screens. Social media can be a waste of your valuable time, and there are so many better things to see than someone's selfie they sent you on Snapchat.
But the main reason I deleted social media is because of insecurity. The main cause of all my insecurity is social media, and it wins by a landslide. This summer has been so rainy where I live, which means I've been spending tons of time inside, and naturally I'm reaching for my phone the second I get bored. The more time I spend scrolling through my various feeds, the more insecure I get about myself. I wanted to talk about each social media handle separately and share why it made me insecure and how I felt after deleting it. I hope that may help anyone struggling with insecurities that stem from the virtual world.
The first app I deleted was Snapchat. I actually deleted this a long time ago, during the school year, and it has saved me SO much time and data. Snapchat is honestly one of the most pointless apps I've ever used. The majority of the people I Snapchatted just sent selfies, and there was no real conversation going on. The whole idea of streaks really annoyed me too and I got to a point where I was just so annoyed at the obsession with streaks and squaring where I just didn't want to be a part of it anymore. So the main reason I deleted it was out of annoyance, but I also struggled a ton with fomo. I was always upset after seeing people's Snapchat stories. I'd see people at parties I didn't even want to be at, but for some reason I was jealous that I wasn't invited. It sucked when I wasn't invited places and it was so obvious to me that I wasn't wanted somewhere because of Snapchat. After I deleted it, I realized how quickly my fomo went away. Since I wasn't seeing people hanging out without me, I was no longer upset about not being invited because I had no idea it was even happening!!
The next app I deleted was Twitter. I still have my account on my computer incase I feel the need to catch up with the latest memes and important current events, but it's totally off my phone. I didn't really delete this because of insecurity, but mostly because of the total time suck that it was. You can spend HOURS on Twitter and it'll seem like minutes. It's scary. I also deleted Twitter because I am a very politically opinionated person, and I got a little out of hand during the election season. Twitter was my immediate go-to when I was angry about the political events, and it did more evil than good, so I got rid of it. Thankfully, stepping away from social media as an outlet for my strong feelings has helped me get better at controlling those feelings and handle them in a more positive way. I also deleted my finsta for the same reason.
Instagram and Pinterest were the hardest for me to delete, but also the ones that brought me the most insecurity. I'd see girls my age living beautiful lives and going on amazing adventures. They'd always be dressed cute and have flawless bodies I could only imagine having. I'd see a girl on my explore page with an amazing feed, and I'd look up from my phone 20 minutes later wondering why the heck I've been looking at some random girl's pictures for so long. It made me feel horrible about my life and my body and it would always leave me feeling like I wasn't good enough. It was hard to delete because I love posting on Instagram. I think it's fun and it's the easiest and most effective way to promote my blog and help you lovely people find my blog posts. It's also an easy way to keep up with my friends and see what's happening in their lives. Insecurity with Instagram had never been a problem with me until this summer. A few days ago I decided it needed to go. The negatives outweighed the benefits and I knew I needed a break. The problem was that I still wanted to continue posting for myself, and I still needed a way to let people know when a new blog post was up. I made a compromise. The app has been deleted off my phone, but when I want to post something to my feed or story, I redownload it, post, and delete it right away. It allows me to still participate in the online community without feeling the insecurities that always came along with Instagram. So if you saw this posted on my Insta story, that's why its there.
I'll probably be back on these apps soon enough, but at this time and place in my life, it's best for me to stay off of it for a little bit until I'm feeling more confident about who I am and about the life that I'm living. It's all about figuring out what's right for you at the time, and if you're contemplating deleting any social media, I'd encourage you to do so. The first few days are a little tough, but I promise in a week you won't even be thinking about it. It's way less important than you'd think.
Thank you so much for reading!! See ya later! <3