i love the new year. maybe even more than christmas. maybe. i love the new year because writing a 9 instead of an 8 at the end of the date just oozes with power and opportunity. coming up with resolutions for self-improvement, the endless number of fresh youtube new years content and even just cleaning my closet in preparation for the new year fills me with the kind of excitement that people typically only associate with monica geller.
i know the new year can get a lot of hate. there's too much pressure to change so much in so little time and we all know 99% of resolution fizzle out in a few weeks. there's the argument that if you just want something bad enough, why are you waiting? just start now! & i get it. we shouldn't need a calendar change to ignite the flame beneath the action that we could have started a while ago. if you want it, just go get it!
there's also a lot of pressure to change who you are. to add a million healthy new habits while subtracting a million and one of the bad ones. there's juice cleanses, january gym membership deals, and unrealistic promises to swear off coffee for good this time. while none of these are bad, a lot of them have to do with looking outside ourselves, but what i'm interested in with this new year is bringing out more of the good stuff that is already inside me that's been in hibernation.
i've still got the classic new years resolutions. i want to eat clean and only when i'm hungry. i want to work out consistently and get more sleep. spend less time on my phone and more time in the present. but this year i want to do these things because i already know that i can and i know that i am happier when i do them.
i can confidently say i've had great breakthroughs in several areas of my life. the problem is they never happen at the same time. last year my faith was at it's peak, but i had about 2 friends i knew i could count on for anything. right now i'm in the best friendships and relationships of my life but i can't remember the last time i worked out and felt really good about it. point is, i've had a lot of highs & a lot of lows, but i can't seem to get all the highs to match up, which brings us to the reasoning behind my resolutions.
each of my resolutions is something i've done consistently before. something i know makes me happy and something i know i'm capable of, which is what gives me a little more faith that i'll actually be able to manage the laundry list of things to do. i have a really good feeling about 2019 because of this focus on strengthening abilities i know i have to be on consistent wavelengths with each other.
i'm a big believer that we've got a ton of purpose and potential already inside us. so this year, i'm not changing who i am with the resolutions, but rather tapping into the best version of myself that i already know exists. i'm hoping to reach my full potential by trying to achieve my goals this year, and i'm praying for persistence, even when i mess up because i'm human and it happens. we make mistakes, but this year i'm more concerned with how quickly i get up instead of how hard i fall.
here's to becoming the best versions of ourselves! cheers to the new years!