Honestly? I've got no idea.
I'm sure whoever is reading this is thinking, "Wow, great. So glad I clicked on this upbeat blog post!!" But before you click out of this looking for something else to do, just stay with me for a little bit. I'm writing this without any sort of end destination or conclusion in mind so let's just see if we end up somewhere good.
A few days ago I read something where someone was asking how to feel self love. They were talking about how they knew how important it was but they didn't know how to authentically and genuinely feel that love for themselves. I read that and I've been thinking about it for a while and I realized that I don't know how to do that either.
I've always been pretty good at telling others how much they're worth and how important they are and where their value comes from. It's easy for me to point out what makes others special, but I realized that its really difficult to do that for myself.
I can be pretty hard on myself and I know I'm not the only one. I have insecurities in bursts; sometimes nothing can touch me and other times all I can think about it what I don't really love about myself. And once I get to the latter, it's difficult to pull myself out of it. The main things I struggle with are my looks and my relationships. I'm someone who pushes people away when I'm struggling and it's really unproductive in relationships. I do this because I've always had this self-inflicted pressure to be all perfect and happy before I go to anyone.
For the looks department, I'm lucky enough to have blonde eyebrows and eyelashes in a world where flawless brows and long lashes are the goal. It leads to a lot of insecurity because I'm just not comfortable being around people without the makeup that solves these "problems."
I debated for a little bit if I should be posting some of my greatest insecurities all over the internet for the world to see. I'm still a teenager and while it's not necessary to share every detail of my life while I'm still young, I decided it would be the best to share this stuff. I wanted to talk about it today because in a world full of timelines that showcase our greatest moments, we may as well have a little bit of content that shows the less glamorous and much more important side of life. I read a few different blogs and I know I've felt like the people who write them are flawless and perfectly secure, and I wanted to make sure people don't think of me like that. Not that I think anyone has a reason to think that way of me or that I believe people are doing so, I just want to make sure I can help people by being relatable and honest.
So anyways, after this whole uplifting chat about insecurity, what I think I'm trying to say is that there's a difference between knowing and feeling.
On some level we all probably know we're beautiful and valuable and worthy. Fortunately, I think the world is beginning to shift into a more positive and accepting light, even if it may be a slow transition. When I go on Instagram I see so many posts about worth and value and all that good stuff which helps us know we are all those things. What I struggle with is really feeling that I am those things. Because we can preach self-love allllll day long, but it's not too effective if we can't feel what it means to love ourselves.
Unfortunately, I don't have the recipe for complete self-acceptance. More than anything I wish I did so I could share it with the world. But it really is different for everyone. Something that helps others feel good about themselves may be useless for someone else. So I don't have the definite answer. But I think I may have a solution.
Let's start a MOVEMENT. I'm currently writing this article at 12:47 A.M. and I just thought of this idea, so let's do it together. Let's find a way to help build ourselves and each other up. To learn how to love ourselves for who we are. Let's start a family who supports each other. TONS of ideas are beginning to flood into my brain right now, but let's make it happen together. Let's call it the finding something beautiful movement. We'll learn how to find the beauty in ourselves and the world around us. So let's start this. It'll start out on social media because nowadays that's the easiest way to connect. Start sharing pictures and ways that you feel the most love for yourself. Share it with me so we can share it with everyone else, because if something helps you, it may help someone else as well. We can use the hashtag #findingsomethingbeautiful or #TheFindingSomethingBeautifulMovement . You also can tag/DM me on the blog Instagram or use it to share ideas with me for the movement. Let's go figure this out together, because we're stronger together. Cheers to the new movement!! Now go find your something beautiful.